Im severly depress and tried to commit suicide earlier ?

Ok so I'm severly depressed..I'm thinking of committing suicide but prt of me just won't..my family are driving me insane to the point where I hve panic attacks..earlier I took a knife and was close to stabbing myself with the kitchen knife until my dad took it away..I don't know what to do I ****** hate how I'm living I don't want to be alive anylonger..what so you think I should do?? I'm going crazy at the moment..I really want to the something stupid...